You'll end up looking at the sky

did it.

2009-09-09T13:30:00.001-04:00

I started a Tumblr but am also keeping this.

http://aaabbey.tumblr.com

Tumblr

2009-09-04T15:21:00.001-04:00

I'm thinking about getting a Tumblr because the things I post here would be better on that type of blog.

HMMMMMMMM.

lungs for days

2009-09-04T00:04:00.001-04:00

Discouragement

2009-09-03T23:58:00.003-04:00

I wish work today didn't give me the chance to sit around for 6 hours and think.

Whenever I feel like this is always do something drastic with my hair.

Wellllllllll

2009-09-03T00:13:00.000-04:00

Sometimes when I'm stressed out...

2009-08-26T22:44:00.002-04:00

I like to lay face down on my floor to decompress

and also look at pictures of cute animals in HATS.

Also someone needs to get me this for christmas or just as a great gift because I would die upon receiving such a thoughtful and amazing gift.

http://search.barnesandnoble.com/booksearch/isbninquiry.asp?r=1&ean=9780761153108&afsrc=1

I cannot wait

2009-08-25T13:12:00.002-04:00

until summer classes are over and I never have to take another accounting class again.

UGH THIS IS SO CUTEEEEEEEE

2009-08-22T22:18:00.000-04:00

I love Nina Simone

2009-08-20T02:19:00.000-04:00

2009-08-20T00:52:00.001-04:00

2009-08-15T23:35:00.001-04:00

"I hope that one day you will have the experience of doing something you do not understand for someone you love."

hilarious

2009-08-11T23:51:00.002-04:00

See you.

2009-08-05T12:05:00.000-04:00

2009-08-04T23:51:00.003-04:00

and nothing comforts me the same as my brave friend who says

I don't care if forever never comes

I'm holding out for that teenage feeling.

I love...

2009-08-03T21:04:00.001-04:00

for the most part I love my cat.

123456789

2009-08-01T13:19:00.001-04:00

New apartment

2009-07-31T00:26:00.003-04:00

New apartment is happening right now and it's very enjoyable.

Too busy lately to do anything fun.

Seriously?

2009-07-27T02:51:00.000-04:00

What is my life right now?

It could be good or bad.

OH MY GOD

2009-07-19T23:15:00.001-04:00

all day i dream about pineapples and starfruit.

2009-07-11T19:54:00.001-04:00

"Hi," she says finally, and like that you are done for, sunk, finished.

Happy 4th of July

2009-07-04T20:21:00.001-04:00

Last night I saw Envelop get beat up by the cops.

Gotta love America, right?

2009-06-14T20:47:00.000-04:00

we started new blogggggss

2009-06-10T14:41:00.001-04:00

please feel free to read our 2 collaborative blogs:

omgnofnway.blogspot.com

fatfouls.blogspot.com

Absolutely devastated.

2009-05-13T20:35:00.002-04:00

Last Tuesday (May 5) my grandmother Joyce Laureene Wright died unexpectedly. It was 4 days before her birthday and the Tuesday before Mother's Day. My family was supposed to go visit for her birthday that weekend and also for my cousin's graduation. Instead we celebrated the graduation followed by a wake and a funeral.

While it was really wonderful seeing my family (between my parents, my brother, me, my uncle and aunt and their 4 kids it's really hard for us all to be in one place at the same time) the reason we had all come together was tinged with a bittersweet air. I haven't been to many funerals in my lifetime and I'm not a very outwardly emotional person. I keep my feelings inward a lot and I never cry. In bad situations I'm pretty good at being the person that can be the least emotional.

The first funeral I remember was my three year old cousin Brittany (I was no older than 4) when she died of unknown causes...and obviously at that time I didn't understand the depth and the real finality of death. When I was 13 my great grandmother Dema died, and even though we were close and it was sad, I didn't cry. She was in her late 80's and had lived a good life. And who knows, maybe at the age of 13 or 14 even then I still really probably didn't get it. I remember watching my grandmother sob at the funeral and even remember my brother crying. A few years later, my great aunt Ione died and she was in her 90's. I don't even think I was able to go the funeral. She lived with my Grandmother until she needed too much help and the last few years of her life she lived in a nursing home. Although she was frail, till the very last day her memory was sharp and she could recall many stories from her childhood.

Now that I'm older, I obviously do understand the concept of losing someone you love. It was one of the most upsetting if not the saddest experience I've had thus far out of my 22 years of life. It was terrible. I feel like shit. I feel emotionally and physically wrecked inside. My heart truly aches. It's been over a week and it's still bad. I think one of the main reasons as to why it's so upsetting is because she was healthy. The last time I saw her, at Christmas, she was perfectly healthy. It was unexpected. It hurts.

I know that she lived a good life and was loved and loved her family. I know that with time, all things get easier. And for those that believe in an afterlife, she's probably playing Yahtzee with Grandma Dema and Aunt Ione (the trifecta of women....and probably hating every minute of it.) I know all of this. But despite it all, it's still so very hard.

I'll miss driving to Matthews, Indiana and everyone piling onto the hard, concrete floors to sleep at night (all six of us kids....only to realize 3 months ago that every single couch in that house was a pull-out bed...), I'll miss the covered bridge and carving our initials into the wood and then coming back years later to find them, I'll miss running around the cemetery across from the house because there's absolutely no where else to go and nothing else to do except to look at all the graves and climb on the old Civil War (or WW1) canon. I'll miss driving around anywhere and listening to her softly hum to herself in the backseat of the car, or miss when she'd interject into a comversation with something we talked about 10 minutes ago, I'll miss when she'd have a glass of Bailey's after dinner calling it, "the good stuff", I'll miss looking at her and my mom together and realizing that they look exactly a like (something I'd never noticed before a couple of years ago). I'll miss her sweet nature and optimism and the way that she never had an unkind word to say about anyone. I'll miss the stories of her childhood and the humor in your old time phrases. I'll miss cringing to myself when she would visit every time I walk into the TV room because her "shows" and game shows are so goddamn loud. I'll miss her giggles and how she LOVED to stay in hotels (why? no on knows.) I'll miss the fact that she'd horde EVERYTHING like there was going to be an armageddon any day...(and if that armageddon really did happen, then she'd be the only one with stockpiles of fiber, toilet paper, lightbulbs and soup.)

There's so many things that I'll miss. I feel so bad like I took her for granted in some ways because I thought she had more time.

It'll be hard thinking towards the holidays and realizing she won't be there. It's hard knowing that we won't ever have to explain how to use the water dispenser. Or that my mom will never have to pick out an outfit for her to wear to a special event because she'd get so nervous beforehand.

I'm sad I didn't get to say goodbye

You will be missed and I'll think of you often.

I just hope that you know you were loved.

Edible Prints

2009-03-25T01:08:00.004-04:00

A series of screen prints that you can actually eat.

They're printed on rice paper!

2009-03-25T01:01:00.001-04:00

How is it that Tyra Banks manages to turn every interview (on her show) back into an interview about herself?

...........what?

http://i44.tinypic.com/2duee5e.jpg

2009-03-18T02:21:00.009-04:00

I need to document this dream before I forget it.

2009-03-02T12:39:00.002-05:00

Coming home this morning after falling back asleep I had this dream that jumped all over the place. The main part of the dream revolved around being in this three-story accessory store with Kate and my friend Sarah (except Sarah turned into Jaime later on in the story.) We were all looking around the store and due to its huge size and the massive tree growing in the middle, we were all separated. Suddenly Kate and I were walking through a huge department store and she was holding out two necklaces that she had stolen from the previous store. We both started running as the security alarms went off. In the background I heard Kate go, "Fine, I'll stay!" as I inconspicuously walked away. Somehow she got away and we met back up outside and the necklaces that she had originally stolen turned into two Hello Kitty basketball-esque jerseys with ruffled sleeves. I looked at her and said, "God, if you really wanted them I would've bought them for you" and her respose was, "WELL I NEEDED THEM." And literally as I looked down she was wearing one. On a side related note to the dream, in order to disguise herself she cut one inch off one side of her hair and spiked the middle into a mohawk.

What the fuck.

It's lovely, I'll take it!

2009-02-21T21:11:00.001-05:00

Probably old news but still funny.

http://www.lovelylisting.com/

uggghhh

2009-02-21T15:04:00.000-05:00

I am so sick of dealing with people.

Wode by Boudicca

2009-01-26T23:04:00.003-05:00

Boudicca recently released a new fragrance that actually comes in a spray paint-esque can. The new scent, called Wode, is colbalt blue and open initial contact will turn skin and any clothing the blue color. As the spray dries, the color disappears. Wode is supposedly based upon the war paint a certain warrior queen was fabled to wear into battle. The name Wode is also a small play on words. "Woad"is a plant extract that turns blue when exposed to oxygen and was also used in ancient British tribal markings.
The scent itself is laden with notes of tuberose, amber, cardamom, clary sage and also hemlock (hemlock? really?)
Yes please.

cupcakes

2008-12-30T01:04:00.004-05:00

Cupcakes featuring Starry Night. These are so great.

Also, I'm so glad the Christmas season is over at work. I survived and one woman even apologized for yelling at me, which leads me to believe that there is faith in humanity.

The reason I hate Christmas

2008-12-22T03:26:00.003-05:00

It's so funny that Christmas is supposedly the season of giving and kindness.
I often think this thought as I'm ringing out another asshole at work
or listening to some customer be a total jerk.
Why is it that everyone around the holidays "is so busy"/"I can't wait for this"/"You're too slow doing your job eventhough it's very evident that you are understaffed at the moment."/"Why don't you have this in stock? this is ridiculous."

Working retail is rough as it is.
Working Christmas in retail is pretty terrible.
I can't wait for it to be over with.

The funny thing about bunnies.

2008-12-19T02:14:00.002-05:00

The funny thing about owning a bunny is that you can't ever really train him/her (in my case, her.)
I mean, Banana knows right from wrong but chooses on her own terms when she's going to listen (or rather not listen most of the time.) It's fine, except for the times when I have to gently prod her to not do something over and over and over and over again.

Instance #1:
Putting your head where it does not belong:
This keeps happening lately whenever I have a drink near her general vicinity. She'll try to drink whatever happens to be inside (that she finds to be pleasantly pleasing) and because the liquid is so low, she'll start by sticking her head inside the rim. This is always followed by her dunking her head inside the glass. But, it is a huge bunny head and that glass is not that big so it always just to happens that her head gets stuck a few times.
I push her away....only to see it happen 5 more times.

Instance #2
Starring at me creepily while I surf the interwebz.
Anytime I'm on the floor with my laptop Banana will inadvertently rest her chin on the top of my computer screen and stare at me. It's weird.
I push her away.....only to see it happen 5 more times.

Instance #3
Going inside my closet
Banana is absolutely not allowed inside my closet. Being a bunny she is apt to nibble on things (although she dosen't nibble all that much) I'd still rather not take the chance. I don't always keep my door closed, as sometimes I forget. During these times it's only a matter of minutes before I hear a stealth bunny butt sneaking into the closet and rustling around. I either say a ster "HEY" or prod her out. She knows this is wrong, I know she knows this is wrong...and my proof is that whenever I go to get her out of the closet, she bounds away joyfully only to return a minute later if I leave the door open.

God, I'm such a sucker.

"If a bullet should enter my brain, let the bullet shatter every closet door"

2008-12-12T01:29:00.003-05:00

Milk was so good!

Movies

2008-12-09T19:15:00.007-05:00

There are so many movies coming out/are out right now that I want to see.

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button

Adapted from the 1920s story by F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button is set in New Orleans from the end of World War I in 1918, into the 21st century. It follows the life of Benjamin (Brad Pitt), who is born with the appearance and physical limitations of a man in his eighties. Abandoned in a nursing home by his father, Benjamin begins aging backward. While in the home, he meets Daisy, a young aspiring ballerina. As the film progresses, the two fall in love, while struggling to deal with the issue of one growing younger while the other grows older

Not to mention that the dress Cate Blanchett wore to the premiere was amazing.

Milk

Milk is a 2008 American biographical film directed by Gus Van Sant. It is based on the life of the late American politician, Harvey Milk (Sean Penn), who was a gay activist and the first openly gay man to be elected to public office in California as a member of the San Francisco Board of Supervisors. Josh Brolin portrays Dan White, the former San Francisco supervisor who assassinated both San Francisco Mayor George Moscone (Victor Garber) and Milk on 27 November 1978.

Where the Wild Things Are

Where the Wild Things Are is a film adaptation of a Maurice Sendak picture book of the same name. The film will be directed by Spike Jonze and written by Dave Eggers.
The movie will combine live action, suitmation, animatronics and CGI. The film's release is currently scheduled for October 16, 2009.

Others include Valkyrie and The Watchmen but I don't feel like posting pictures anymore.
Yes please!

2008-11-30T01:15:00.001-05:00

Abbey Scarlet Parson's Dewey Decimal Section:

821 English poetry

Abbey Scarlet Parson = 122559318250618954 = 122+559+318+250+618+954 = 2821

Class:
800 Literature

Contains:
Literature, criticism, analysis of classic writing and mythology.

What it says about you:
You're a global, worldly person who wants to make a big impact with your actions. You have a lot to tell people and you're good at making unique observations about everyday experiences. You can notice and remember details that other people think aren't important.

Find your Dewey Decimal Section at Spacefem.com

so annoyed right now

2008-11-15T01:59:00.001-05:00

Okay, I get the point.
I'm done talking because who really even fucking cares anymore.

For love

2008-11-12T13:18:00.002-05:00

Keith Olbermann's commentary on the passing of Proposition 8:

this made me want to cry.

2008-11-10T14:33:00.001-05:00

more animals

2008-11-04T18:55:00.001-05:00

I voted!

Midterms.

2008-10-26T19:10:00.002-04:00

Is it already that time of year again?

Also, can I say that I think it's funny when people complain about other people taking advantage of other people or people that aren't greatful...when that person is exactly what they're complaining about.
Get real.

Hmmmm

2008-10-24T01:00:00.004-04:00

~~Someone that does not disappoint.~~

you do not.

more on the YAY

2008-10-17T12:02:00.001-04:00

So I'm just going to write a short blurb about why I was so excited earlier.
I was offered an intership with Tigertree boutique in the short north.
EXCITING!

2008-10-13T01:00:00.001-04:00

YAY!

More on this yay later.

a moment of silence

2008-10-12T17:57:00.002-04:00

after I get off work I just like to sit and not talk to anyone for an hour or so.
I just need to decompress.

I also need my friends to support the decision(s) I've made whether or not they like it.

bloop bloop bloop

2008-10-09T00:26:00.002-04:00

~~I am annoyed right now.~~

okay I'm not annoyed anymore.
I also just finished a 600 page book.
YAY.

sigh

2008-10-07T00:11:00.002-04:00

Why do people roller blade to class?
I mean, what do those people do with their normal shoes when they actually get to class?
And like most students who take 2-4 classes per quarter, do they roller blade to every single class?
Isn't it more of a hassle to take the skates off and put shoes on all the time?
It's not like you can effectively wear shoes and skates at the same time.
and it's not like grown-ass people actually wear these:

(in which, you could actually wear your shoes with the skates.)

Do those people wear their skates to class?
What happens if you have a lecture hall and you're in blades and you have to sit in the front row because you got there late? (which would ultimately defeat the purpose of the roller blades..)

It just seems like more effort than it's actually worth.

on another related note, I wish that Fisher Price actually made those skates in adult sizes because I would attempt to roller skate/blade to class. Maybe.

ay yo.

2008-10-05T00:03:00.001-04:00

I think I need some advice.

What are you wearing, temptress?

2008-09-22T10:37:00.003-04:00

Skepticism:

skeptical

3 dictionary results for: skeptical

skep·ti·cal
[skep-ti-kuhl] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –adjective

1.	inclined to skepticism; having doubt: a skeptical young woman.

2.	showing doubt: a skeptical smile.

Maybe I should stop being so skeptical because it obviously hasn't done me any favors in the past couple of days. I should just start taking things at face value I suppose. Due to the awkwardness of last night (mostly probably on-set by me) I'm wondering if things are going to change or if I've actually ruined them...that actually makes my stomach hurt to think about. We'll see. Fingers crossed again.

Job Opportunities:

A certain job opportunity (that I really, really want) has presented itself to me. I'm really nervous and don't think that it'll be possible for me to do it, but nevertheless, I applied anyways.

Fall of 2008:

Classes start again Wednesday. I feel like I basically had no summer considering that I took two summer classes and have only officially been on break for about a month or so. I kind of padded my quarter (hopefully) to be kind of easy so I can 1. take it easy for a quarter (no math class!!!!) and 2. to raise my GPA because it's not quite where I'd like it to be.
I've also determined that, in order to utilize it to its full advantage, I'm going to start writing down the things I see at OSU because it's inevitable that I'm going to see about 1000 weird things a day and either 1. post some bulletin about it on myspace that I'll eventually forget about or 2. forget about the actual thing until a few months later when it doesn't even really matter anymore.
Examples from the last few years:
1. raccoon jumping and back-flipping off garbage can
2. renaissance cat umbrella (which obviously inspired my version of renaissance cat drawings)
3. segway man and old man keeping pace with each other while one jogged and the other "segwayed"
4. medieval renaissance joust/battle on the oval
5. CABS bus love
etc, etc, etc. It really only gets better, I just wish I could remember every weird thing I've seen or heard. This year I'm determined.

blah blah blah.

Pioneering woman

2008-09-16T12:04:00.001-04:00

So, as of around 3:30-4pm on Sunday the electricity has been out mostly all over Columbus.
My apartment doesn't have any yet, although my parents regained theirs yesterday.
It's so weird how quiet things are around here.
I't unnerving.

I feel like a pioneer...who wants to get hammered in the dark.

mish mash mish mash of thoughts

2008-09-12T10:21:00.004-04:00

Halloween:
Halloween is actually pretty soon! The last year has flown by at a significant rate. It seems like only last week that we were all dressed as dipset at East Village making fun of the girl on top of the bar next to us (only to find out later said girl was actually a boy...with better legs than all of us.)
But this year I so I obviously want to be a bunny because
1. I'm the bunny whisperer
2. I mean, do you know me?
3. I already have most of the costume because I wore it once this summer at Jenny's animal party.

I really wish I could safely rollerskate around all night because if there's one thing Banana loves...it's rollerskating. But knowing me, the mess that I will probably be that night, and large crowds of people, I'd rather not take the risk of killing myself and/or injuring anyone within a 20 foot radius of me.
And the krogers across the street is already selling pumpkins, which I hate because who is really going to buy a pumpkin RIGHT NOW? What the hell are you going to do with a pumpkin right now? Except look at it sitting around in your home, wasting away the $5 that you prematurely spent (either that or risking some little shit smashing it as it sits outside.)

Dreamzzzz:
I also keep having these really strange dreams, which is so weird because my normal dreams are more mundane than my actual life (i.e. me walking around and looking at things, me noticing things, me talking to people, etc.)
These dreams aren't even that fantastic either (i.e. I had a dream that Jordan bought a vending machine...but it was small and looked wooden...I know, cool right?)

Stupid People:
I also reallllly want our trashy neighbors to move and/or be kicked out. The chance of them actually being evicted from their apartment is pretty high right now considering they've only lived there for about 3-4 months and have already had 2 or more violations against their lease for 1.) being way too loud and 2.) leaving trash all over outside their apartment.
A list of reasons I do not enjoy these people:
1. they smoke inside their apartment so now our apartment smells like an armpit, always
2. they have 50 million of their friends over every night
3. half of their friends are probably still in high school
4. one of the neighbor's boyfriends has a car with the words "TRONIC" down the side. What does that even mean, dude?
5. they just suck at life in general (i.e, last weekend jaime saw one of them hit a parked car twice and then not leave a note. Cool, I hope you burn the fiery pits of adolescent hell.)

I've also been really content lately and reading a lot more.
let's hope things stay this way.

fingers crossed

2008-09-11T03:06:00.001-04:00

what? really?
fingers crossed
hoping
hoping
hoping
to not be let down.

on another note:
happy 9-1-1
love,
freedom

TOO SOON?

2008-08-20T21:59:00.002-04:00

I am sick of the complex and crave the simple.
When things are right, they are easy.

it's all a matter of understanding and actually seeing it with your own eyes.

obsessed.

2008-08-16T19:44:00.002-04:00

oh academia, you can pick me up
soothe me with your words when I need your love

I am a dash and you are a dot
when will you see that I am all that you've got?
I'm a binary code that you cracked long ago
but to you I'm just a novel that you wish you'd never wrote
I'm greater than X and lesser than Y, so why is it
that I still can't catch your eye?
You're a cryptic crossword, a song I've never heard
while I sit here drawing circles I'm afraid of being hurt

Oh academia, you can pick me up
soothe me with your word when I need your love.

A few things that I would like to own:

2008-07-29T13:43:00.011-04:00

American Apparel Le Sac dress

that can be worn 7 different ways
http://store.americanapparel.net/rsa0300.html#i

Long-Sleeved wrap in all colors
to be worn a multitude of ways come fall/winter
http://www.alternativeapparel.com/Shop/ItemDetails.aspx?ProductID=418&CategoryID=20&Overstock=False&Section=&SectionUrl=&Consumer=Y

Striped cardigans
http://store.americanapparel.net/rsaws400w.html

Moss Mills bunny ring
in rose gold
http://www.mossmills.com/cart.php?target=product&product_id=484&category_id=62

Little Otsu day planner
first printing is sold out so I'll have to wait for the 2nd edition
http://littleotsu.myshopify.com/products/non-planner-datebook-by-keri-smith

Chloe Perfume
http://www.saksfifthavenue.com/main/ProductDetail.jsp?PRODUCT%3C%3Eprd_id=845524446185700&FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=282574492710931&ASSORTMENT%3C%3East_id=1408474399545537&bmUID=1217355499459&ev19=1:1

Smaller Longchamp Le Pliage bag in black with short handles
http://www.longchamp.com/en/home-collection/showroom-en-425.html&genre=femme&ligne=089&nav5=lignes&snav5=089
with about 1000 other things
but those have been sticking out in my mind as of late.

OH

2008-07-19T14:12:00.001-04:00

beaDEBASERR (1:34:18 PM): this reminds me of when i got a furby
beaDEBASERR (1:34:22 PM): i wanted one so fucking bad
beaDEBASERR (1:34:23 PM): so bad
beaDEBASERR (1:34:26 PM): because i just wanted to teach it things
beaDEBASERR (1:34:33 PM): okay listen
beaDEBASERR (1:34:36 PM): so i got one for christmas
beaDEBASERR (1:34:38 PM): i was so pumped
beaDEBASERR (1:34:50 PM): but uhm
beaDEBASERR (1:34:53 PM): it was sitting in my room
beaDEBASERR (1:34:57 PM): and i was out in the living room doing something
beaDEBASERR (1:35:01 PM): and i heard something going
beaDEBASERR (1:35:05 PM): UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
lucky4youimhere8 (1:35:11 PM): hahahahahahahahaha
beaDEBASERR (1:35:11 PM): like continuously no breaks
beaDEBASERR (1:35:15 PM): so i go in my room
beaDEBASERR (1:35:19 PM): and my furby is on my dresser
beaDEBASERR (1:35:22 PM): eyes halfway open
beaDEBASERR (1:35:26 PM): mouth open going UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
beaDEBASERR (1:35:29 PM): and not stopping
lucky4youimhere8 (1:35:31 PM): omg
beaDEBASERR (1:35:33 PM): so i'm trying to get it to stop
beaDEBASERR (1:35:41 PM): i took the batteries out and obviously it stopped
beaDEBASERR (1:35:43 PM): i put them back in
beaDEBASERR (1:35:53 PM): and it's eyes went right back to that same position
beaDEBASERR (1:35:56 PM): and he wouldnt fucking stop
lucky4youimhere8 (1:35:57 PM): ahahahahahaha
lucky4youimhere8 (1:36:03 PM): that's what you get for wanting one
beaDEBASERR (1:36:05 PM): ended up returning him and just wrote it off as something that was not meant to be
lucky4youimhere8 (1:36:14 PM): ahahahaha
beaDEBASERR (1:36:15 PM): it was kind of scary

That is so good.

Simple things.

2008-07-16T01:36:00.003-04:00

I wish that it was easy for me to vocalize my emotions and that I didn't automatically function so mechanically. I sometimes envy those people who can really wear their hearts on their sleeves. I've taken such extra precaution so as not to/never again become that person again. I've meticulously convinced myself that being emotional is to show someone that you're a weak thing. And I'm not a weak person. I'm not a weak thing.
I know that I should. I can feel the words forming in my mouth, bubbling up from my throat. I can feel the urge in my stomach, I can feel it gnawing my brain.
I know that I should, but I can't ever bring myself to do it.

I've still got many miles to go.

Perfect things

2008-07-14T17:04:00.003-04:00

come, my love
we have mountains to climb
wilderness to wander

you have shown me
a love that cannot be
given or taken

let us bask
in the fullness
of ourselves

a simple kiss
now blood and breath
both awakened

a balanced diet
to sustain
life and health

we will wax and wane
in attention given from our father
we can trust he will return
yet, she is here.

she has granted us this land
to forge her cycle
and when we doubt
places the ocean
in our tears

come, my love we have oceans to sail

the painted nature
of this earth
is water-based
and will fade
if not tended

let us retrace the origin
of a kiss

they have ravished
your heart and mind
but your breath
travels freely
out of your mouth
and into mine

there is the current
I wish to sail
here is a love
uncharted

throw away your map
and swallow
this cratered pill

pull it from the sky
and let it dissolve
under your tongue

it is only a matter of time
before we are timeless.

Something

2008-07-09T02:15:00.002-04:00

just a warm body to press against
and someone to touch me
just something to make it count this time.

I promise you that I'll smile.

I think that this will do.

2008-07-08T02:23:00.000-04:00

But you can't give your heart to a wild thing; the more you do, the stronger they get. Until they're strong enough to run into the woods. Or fly into a tree. Then a taller tree. Then the sky. That's how you'll end up if you love a wild thing. You'll end up looking at the sky. But believe me- it's better to look at the sky than to live there. Such an empty place; so vague. just a country where the thunder goes and things disappear...