A few things that I would like to own:

American Apparel Le Sac dress

that can be worn 7 different ways
http://store.americanapparel.net/rsa0300.html#i


Long-Sleeved wrap in all colors
to be worn a multitude of ways come fall/winter
http://www.alternativeapparel.com/Shop/ItemDetails.aspx?ProductID=418&CategoryID=20&Overstock=False&Section=&SectionUrl=&Consumer=Y

Striped cardigans
http://store.americanapparel.net/rsaws400w.html

Moss Mills bunny ring
in rose gold
http://www.mossmills.com/cart.php?target=product&product_id=484&category_id=62


Little Otsu day planner
first printing is sold out so I'll have to wait for the 2nd edition
http://littleotsu.myshopify.com/products/non-planner-datebook-by-keri-smith



Chloe Perfume
http://www.saksfifthavenue.com/main/ProductDetail.jsp?PRODUCT%3C%3Eprd_id=845524446185700&FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=282574492710931&ASSORTMENT%3C%3East_id=1408474399545537&bmUID=1217355499459&ev19=1:1

Smaller Longchamp Le Pliage bag in black with short handles
http://www.longchamp.com/en/home-collection/showroom-en-425.html&genre=femme&ligne=089&nav5=lignes&snav5=089
with about 1000 other things
but those have been sticking out in my mind as of late.

OH

beaDEBASERR (1:34:18 PM): this reminds me of when i got a furby
beaDEBASERR (1:34:22 PM): i wanted one so fucking bad
beaDEBASERR (1:34:23 PM): so bad
beaDEBASERR (1:34:26 PM): because i just wanted to teach it things
beaDEBASERR (1:34:33 PM): okay listen
beaDEBASERR (1:34:36 PM): so i got one for christmas
beaDEBASERR (1:34:38 PM): i was so pumped
beaDEBASERR (1:34:50 PM): but uhm
beaDEBASERR (1:34:53 PM): it was sitting in my room
beaDEBASERR (1:34:57 PM): and i was out in the living room doing something
beaDEBASERR (1:35:01 PM): and i heard something going
beaDEBASERR (1:35:05 PM): UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
lucky4youimhere8 (1:35:11 PM): hahahahahahahahaha
beaDEBASERR (1:35:11 PM): like continuously no breaks
beaDEBASERR (1:35:15 PM): so i go in my room
beaDEBASERR (1:35:19 PM): and my furby is on my dresser
beaDEBASERR (1:35:22 PM): eyes halfway open
beaDEBASERR (1:35:26 PM): mouth open going UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
beaDEBASERR (1:35:29 PM): and not stopping
lucky4youimhere8 (1:35:31 PM): omg
beaDEBASERR (1:35:33 PM): so i'm trying to get it to stop
beaDEBASERR (1:35:41 PM): i took the batteries out and obviously it stopped
beaDEBASERR (1:35:43 PM): i put them back in
beaDEBASERR (1:35:53 PM): and it's eyes went right back to that same position
beaDEBASERR (1:35:56 PM): and he wouldnt fucking stop
lucky4youimhere8 (1:35:57 PM): ahahahahahaha
lucky4youimhere8 (1:36:03 PM): that's what you get for wanting one
beaDEBASERR (1:36:05 PM): ended up returning him and just wrote it off as something that was not meant to be
lucky4youimhere8 (1:36:14 PM): ahahahaha
beaDEBASERR (1:36:15 PM): it was kind of scary





That is so good.

Simple things.

I wish that it was easy for me to vocalize my emotions and that I didn't automatically function so mechanically. I sometimes envy those people who can really wear their hearts on their sleeves. I've taken such extra precaution so as not to/never again become that person again. I've meticulously convinced myself that being emotional is to show someone that you're a weak thing. And I'm not a weak person. I'm not a weak thing.
I know that I should. I can feel the words forming in my mouth, bubbling up from my throat. I can feel the urge in my stomach, I can feel it gnawing my brain.
I know that I should, but I can't ever bring myself to do it.

I've still got many miles to go.

Perfect things

come, my love
we have mountains to climb
wilderness to wander

you have shown me
a love that cannot be
given or taken

let us bask
in the fullness
of ourselves

a simple kiss
now blood and breath
both awakened

a balanced diet
to sustain
life and health

we will wax and wane
in attention given from our father
we can trust he will return
yet, she is here.

she has granted us this land
to forge her cycle
and when we doubt
places the ocean
in our tears

come, my love we have oceans to sail

the painted nature
of this earth
is water-based
and will fade
if not tended

let us retrace the origin
of a kiss

they have ravished
your heart and mind
but your breath
travels freely
out of your mouth
and into mine

there is the current
I wish to sail
here is a love
uncharted

throw away your map
and swallow
this cratered pill

pull it from the sky
and let it dissolve
under your tongue

it is only a matter of time
before we are timeless.

Something

just a warm body to press against
and someone to touch me
just something to make it count this time.



I promise you that I'll smile.

I think that this will do.

But you can't give your heart to a wild thing; the more you do, the stronger they get. Until they're strong enough to run into the woods. Or fly into a tree. Then a taller tree. Then the sky. That's how you'll end up if you love a wild thing. You'll end up looking at the sky. But believe me- it's better to look at the sky than to live there. Such an empty place; so vague. just a country where the thunder goes and things disappear...